Questions.....but answers?

Can I be in search of the meaning of life when I haven't decided to live it yet?
What is IT exactly?
Would a person really be happy on "the other side"?
If you were asked to show your GAME FACE, what exactly would it look like?
Is it possible to be a champion without blood, sweat, and tears? or do you need all 3?
In order to be the straw that breaks the camels back...don't you need help?
When people say "THEY SAY" I question the validity of THEIR words.
A broken heart is not really a broken heart now is it?
How would I be missing out of something fun Ive never had, if I never had it to know?
Why are there so many bad drivers on the road, you ask? Could the test be too easy?
Could they call Life insurance Death Insurance?Besides that really what it is.
Does an incident you had in elementary school really go in a "permanent record" file?
If history repeats itself does that mean death is just a temporary memory loss till we are reborn?
and if a picture is worth a thousand words, then whats a writing worth?

Unicorn Pride

Staring down the ramp and I could see the turf at the end
The click clack of cleats and a rumble of two teams ready to battle for a win
Katy came out first beaming with confidence and size
Then the NB team trotted down the ramp with their eye on the prize
I walked to the field and glared around a fog filled battle field
And was rushed with and indescribable emotion that nothing could shield
Both teams took the field with an intense passion
As both sides of Rice Stadium had fans waving their colors as if it were going out of fashion
Interceptions back and forth, a chess game of field position and a fight
One team would push and the other pushed back with all their might
The fog began to settle down closer and closer to the field
The players fight showed no signs of stopping or coming to a yield
A few short scores back and forth and the game was coming to a wrap
Then on 3rd and 10 the Unicorns threw a TD pass for a potential tie, then came the crap
A penalty on big blue and their dreams of state faded away
But in no way can they hang their head, especially the way they played that day
A great run and a tough fight
The Unicorns left all they had on that field and it was definitely a great sight
So no matter what people say about your 2009 state run
In the hearts of all the Unicorn faithful you guys are #1

Monster

Blindsided by the ugly truth she stares in the mirror
She's awakened by the illusion that glares at her in horror
Another year has gone by and her time is fading
All this time, it was her who has been faithfully waiting
Waiting for another chance at the things she loves the most
Whispering into that coffee can with excitement to boast
She pierces into the mirror and squints to really see her loss
Or what is it that everyone else has to come across
A newly constructed woman as if from a book
And time after time that knife has rearranged her look
From sad to happy and wrinkle to none
But in the end there are things that cant be changed by anyone
A nip tuck here and a lift there
Pulling your skin up like a broken pair of underwear
Be happy with what you were given to share
Deflate your bags and hold that head up high if you dare
Show the world the new and improved you that's torn
And possesses an inner beauty you were given, way back when you were born

Im the one who....

Inside my mind asks why
Outside I struggle not to cry
beliefs keep me from letting things go
And sometimes I'm obnoxious, everybody must know
Personal, is not how I meant it when we talked
Ignored is how you wished you walked
Follow what you see in me
Because perfection is not what its all cracked up to be
So stay focused on the things that make you smile
And your heart will be thanking you for a long long while

Am I you, or are you me

Release my fear with a soft kiss
Hesitate with your heart so there's nothing you miss
Slowly she wraps her arms around me and I smile
Her gentle touch has escaped me for a while
I embrace her beauty as I glare into her eyes
And everything melts away even those nasty lies
Lies of never loving another, lies of never wanting it again
But resurrect the cross that you have sealed within
Be true to your emotions and you can swim in the sea of tranquility
Because its all of you I destroy with my love, not just your ability
And its all of me you create with your nasty hands
Stopping me from running like I were stuck in these love sands
Churning my legs as fast as they can go
Deeper I sink into your never empty soul

Do You?

Do you ever wonder what my life is like when your not around
Do you ever wonder how I can be this way
Do you ever ask yourself what you did
Do you ever tell yourself its all your fault
Do you ever think about how you talked to me
Do you ever think about how much you showed me
Do you ever just know that I exist this way because, well, you know
Do you ever just know that life's what you made of it for me
Do you ever know how much I love you
Do you ever? Well of course you do mother, your the greatest!!

Am I getting your attention yet

Inside its toasty and still my toes are cold
They must be connected to my heart
Outside its chilly and maybe its because my hearts exposed
If every heartbeat was to stop for just a second, would mine make it snow
Shower the fields of dreams with a salty wetness to help it grow
Or the fields may have already been planted to soak up everything it gets
SHUT UP, its my turn to hurt
Its my turn to look for comfort in the arms of another warm blooded heartless American
Taking the thorn wrapped brain and devouring it with what, salt?
Engulfing the righteousness of my self worth
Entangled in a web of unforgettable feelings for who or what
I look through the crack in the mirror and realize, its my hearts reflection

Today was the day.....

As they walk through the bone chilling wind they clinch each others hand tight
They share a walk in the clouds because they know it feels right
Not a ray of sunlight in sight
But their hearts shine with all their might
And today was the day they ended their flight
Arms spread like glorious wings sailing them through life
Memories rush out of all the things they have done as man and wife
From the time she was a little girl she dreamed of a man like him at her side
Times as a young boy he pictured his ring around that girl on the playground slide
And today was the day they ended their ride
Nothing but memories filled the cobweb filled halls of their home
Echoes of laughter, love and joy ensuring they would never be alone
A shelter that could protect everything they cherished
But as the blaze washed through it, they held each other tight as they perished
And today was the day they ended their...............

All is DONE with love

Cherish every day as if you were supposed to be mine
Wrap my heart around your hand every time
If today was the last time Id say goodbye again, say Hi
My heart would remember that last smile just so I wouldn't cry
She agrees that Ive broken the only heart that would never betray my own
And now we shall never be again, alone
Futures go on and time passes by
Times change and people leave without a chance to die
Hearts get filled with regret and love get filled with anger
But our souls never saw their clash as an intimate danger
Another drop of life fills the cup
And marching down the street they settle with a chin up
Pounding the ground with a heavy foot further away from their hearts jail
Then something stops him in his tracks.........her smell

Life is like a box of LIFE

Disappointed because she said she loves you
Let down because he said you were the one
Angry because today was the greatest day of your life
Confused because you cant decide if your happy
Pretend its not your life that makes you sad
Pretend its not your world that's collapsing before you
Pretend that you are the center of your world
Assure your dreams that this time it will be fun as you two talk
Assure your screams that they are all going to run out of breath
Assure your self that if life hands you a box of chocolates
Throw those motherfuckers out and create your own happiness

Creature of the Night

Thrill me with your soul
Kill me with your mind
Can I run away cowardly
Or shall I stay and embrace the escance
Pretend its time to embark on your future
And lay in a dead silent so everyone can hear you
Reinvent the thrill of just knowing
Knowing that you can control your destiny
Even if that Destiny is walking for money

Are you dreaming, REALLY

Ever pass someone on the street and wonder who they REALLY are?
Ever listen to a song and think, what were they REALLY thinking when they wrote this?
Ever watch a show and blurt out "I could have done that way better than them, REALLY"?
Do we really ever do all the things we set out to do?
Could we really ever ALL be astronauts?

No we don't REALLY know them but that's the reason we stare inconspicuously
Does it REALLY matter what its about, we will find a meaning that makes sense to us
Could you REALLY do better with that pint of ice cream in your hand..

Our will and imagination allow us to achieve the greatest things in the world
A humans will to make all their dreams come true is untested
So go ahead and pin up that last corner of the blanket and turn off those lights
Slide into that cardboard box you taped all those buttons to
Lay back with your legs on the side of the bed, and countdown
5, 4, 3, 2, 1......Away you go as a 7 year old dreamer
And remember, dreams can always come true.....if your willing to survive the nightmares!!!

Todays Memory

Do you remember your childhood?
Do you want to remember it?
Was it a time of laughter and joy?
Or was it a memory you tend to forget?
I remember racing my friend around the block barefoot
I remember sliding down "police hill" ON MY KNEES
I remember stuffing my dad's cigarette with a firework
I remember being yelled at to go to sleep because I was singing with the radio too loud
I remember "hunting" for crawdads in the creek down the street
I remember making out for the first time at the age of 12, she was 18
I remember taking my sister to the ER after falling of her bike and splitting her chin
I remember filling a small trash can with water so my sis and I could uhhh swim??
I remember the first thing I ever stole, and mom turning the car around so I could return it
I remember the things you ever told me about when there was nobody around
I remember the things we shouldn't remember but they make me a better man anyway
I remember........it all, even when it doesn't remember me!

Mi Corazon

I see your heart and it makes for a beautiful day
You are just as lovely in each and every way
Lovely smile, beautiful soul, and eyes that can make you melt
I know this because staring in them last time, its definitely how I felt
You tell me about your day and I tell you about my life
When we express your feelings it gets so steamy and thick you can cut it with a knife
Our bodies connect with a magnetic attraction
Rubbing your porcelain skin nothing can be a distraction
I enjoy every inch of you cherishing every second of every touch
You lay there with eyes closed enjoying it all and not saying much
The impulses I receive says it all when I touch each and every body part
I just got another message, wait….its from your heart!!
Me too!!!

Another Hometown Tragedy

What are we teaching our children today
Are we trying to make everything ok
Do we push them in the directions they go
Or do we guide them in the right paths everyone must know
Small sponges our children rely on us for knowledge and protection
But terror and fear we allow them to live in with a fatherly rejection
Hard, is how they are raised and allowed to find guidance among friends
And eventually "just getting by" is their flight at all ends
So once again we must say goodbye to another one of our children cut short
Who's potential was endless and unfortunately found emptiness as a last resort
A collection of hollow promises and empty dreams
And now love ones weep the painful salty streams
Streams that could eventually dry and disappear
But why the world has to lose a wonderful kid, could never be clear
So a prayer goes out to everyone that is affected deeply in their heart
A prayer so that a town finds a way to fix the fact that their children are slowly falling apart

Is the door open

Innocent heart engulfed in the rage of life
A title wave lifts the spirit of our joy
A joy with no end and a forgotten beginning
They dance a tirade of moves on top of their boards
Only to get a glimpse of finishing first
They love to live and live to love
Ecstasy and eternity promised to those who perish
Their spirits beg to run along side with them
And their inner demons tear away at their flesh
Exploding to escape the vengeance and terror of what....

Our will to survive?

One of my Favorite Poems by Dylan Thomas

DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

1-on-1 with Joe

Stop yelling at me
Your pain is causing me not to see
I can feel the pain in your words
And sometimes you make me feel like those free birds
Is there anyway you can understand what it takes to be a man
I have tried to show you as best as I can
I didn't say no when you wanted to play 1-on-1
I laughed and ignored the beer/puke breath as the score was 21-0, I WON
What was it I really won?
What was it you even remembered about your son?
Ever have the urge to say you loved me stone cold sober?
Or was that liquid courage all I could get from you over and over?
I'm older now and have made many mistakes
But for some reason being your son, I can't figure out what it takes

Are you new? or Just a kid inside?

Today's youth are a very weird bunch we say
But I'm sure they said that about us yesterday

Listening to that horrible music and bad hair
But like us they really don't care

Every generation has its own identity
Whether it's being hippies or just a symbol for infinity

No matter what generation emerges over time
They all make everything connect like the next rhyme

Together generations fall into a pattern of history repeating
Just like last nights supper in the microwave reheating

So as your little girl says "you just don't understand"
You can say "oh yeah I forgot you are the first 15year old in this new land"

Think back of how you were when you were young
To a memory that made you so frustrated with your parents, yeah you know the one

Mirror Mirror

If tonight were the last time I would see you then I wouldn't say goodbye
If yesterday was the last time I felt you then I wouldn't have let go
If last week was the last time we listened to tejano then I would still be playing music
And if last month was the last time we talked then I would Cherish every second of the memory
Instead I stand here glaring at a creature of such force and power
Staring deep into the depths of its soul
Eyes wide open as if an invitation to search deep into its mind
Looking past this creature of habit and accepting its love
Grasping on tightly as of to never be allowed to let go
Clinging to it with love in my heart
What is this I notice in the mirror? MY FATHER

Grillin N Chillin

Simple minds sit around and talk
What do they say? nothing
What do they here? nothing
What does their words mean? nothing
To many just sitting around is nothing
But to some, its everything
Its the great taste of a cold beer and great company
Its that sight of everyones kids running about with no worries
Its the tension when that ONE relative shows up
Its the great smell of BBQ grilling the whole day
Its the fight the brothers got into over.....who knows
Its the hug and drunken tears the brothers share after the fight
Or is it just the love that everyone has for each other, even if they won't say it!!!

Lions Roar

The anger consumes me and I'm lost for hours
"I can do this or I can do that" my minds flooded with thoughts
In all reality there is nothing I can really do
One day I fear the anger will be released like a newly freed Lion
Breaking away with such rage and happiness
Tearing into everything with great force and devouring life
So as I keep the beast locked up, I fear for my soul
Can my spirit be broken or torn down
I say not at all, besides aren't I just the lion trapped in the jaws of life

Im the one who....

Inside my mind asks why
Outside I struggle not to cry
beliefs keep me from letting things go
And sometimes I'm obnoxious, everybody must know
Personal, is not how I meant it when we talked
Ignored is how you wished you walked
Follow what you see in me
Because perfection is not what its all cracked up to be
So stay focused on the things that make you smile
And your heart will be thanking you for a long long while

Mi amigo Theodoro..."Teddy"

I smile every time I hear your name
Thinking back of all the fun things we did together, or were they lame?
Either way we would swing high into the clouds and sky
Every minute or every day seemed to just fly by
I smile every time I hear your voice
Remembering the hot summer day that I made a choice
A choice to say hello and you whispered Hi
We became friends and eventually went our separate ways
And now all I have is the memories of your childish days
I'm thankful for all we shared in our blooming years
Maybe you and I can reminisce about it all, over a few beers...

A Bugs Life

I flounder in the air with my heart spread
Fluttering my black and red wings, but am I dead
Passing by the blades of a violet sunset
Swimming ever so gently away from the endangering net
The passing blades wave at me as if to be inviting my feet to land
Their roots held strong and planted in the sand
My feet begin to dangle as if telling me, lets go
Flutter those wings and take it slow
Gently rest onto the blades of grass in order to suck the dew
Taking a sip to quench my thirst of life, watching, as the grass grew

Raindrops of Life

If you got the remedy then who's offering the bite
Another battle within, till the death you can fight
Reach down inside your soul and rediscover adulthood
Place your eyes into that window that you know is so good
Watch yourself and pay close attention
Your about to do things they said you should never mention
All the lessons you can dream about are locked in your brain
Turn the key of knowledge and make it rain
Raindrops of a hidden agenda that you for got about
Because over time your life has taken a different route
Turn the wheel and get on the right path again
You remember when life was easy......WHEN?

The Nothing

In the wilderness I run naked
No turning back to see what Im missing
Exhaustion never comes and I wonder why
Am I supposed to be tired?
Am i supposed to be in pain?
Barefoot I wander through the trees
Eyes wide shut I glare at the treetops
Silence has taken me by storm
And the winds have whipped my face
I begin to realize, this is not my life
I have ran into forever
I have ran into nothing
I have ran into......WHERE ARE YOU

Parents Love

Come with me my child
I will teach you to not be so wild
I will give you lots of love
You will be held high above
Above anything in my life
Guide you to make good choices
Encouraging and love from our voices
Every day I will protect you and help you understand
That your life should have a plan
A plan to be productive
One thats not destructive
So please my child let me love you and make you tough
Because just surviving should NEVER BE ENOUGH

Together

Tengo mi corazon abierto por tu amor
My feelings begin to pour and pour
Me gusto a mirar tu cara porque estas muy bonita
And my heart explodes with passion because you are my senorita
Te quero todos los dias mas y mas
Some days my soul is so amazed with you my eyes are criss cross
Puedo bailar con tigo por todo mi vida
Holding you tight and enjoying every minute saying ohhh yeahhhh
So forever we can dance and love in the rain
And ye,s times will challenge and there will be pain
But with love as our guide
There's nowhere happiness can hide
And nothing to stand in my way with you by my side

Superstar goes bad, or does he??

Oh man he's one of the best players I've seen play
He can dribble with both hands and drive any way
Jumps higher than anyone, probably even Labron
At every level from age 5, championships hes won
Basketball is all he seems to know and only a mere 18 years old
But, coaches from big schools say no because of some things they were told
Talent, he has more than anyone else they've seen
And now drama and accusations are flowing like a river stream
So he wanders the streets with the clouds hanging over his head
Confused and wondering how can all his dreams be dead
With a small chance he may be able to crawl out
And I know its going to take a great deal of clout
So stop making excuses superstar about what you "didn't do"
And show the world that accomplishing your dreams can come true

"Do the right thing, EVEN when no ones looking!"

Doing Time

Outside the sun shines bright and the kids play
Outside my eyes squint and the trash blows away
Outside I can smell summer cooking the streets
Outside it will continue to get hotter over the next few weeks
Outside everyone is hurrying to get things done
Outside oiled bodies are glistening in the sun
Outside you can be free
Outside...its where you'd be without that felony

Memories or Is it just me

Have I forgotten where I came from?
Who's asking me and why?
I have pounded the pavement barefoot by blumberg
I have grazed the field behind my Gravel Street home
Forget? How could I Ever?
Why would my mind ever allow me to lose thought
The thoughts of being the king of kickball
The feeling of riding bikes free as a bird
Or is it the memory of Pain?
Pain I saw in her eyes
Pain I felt in my heart
Pain that has made me the man I am today
Forgotten? I would never do such a thing
I'm just more prepared for anything this life has to bring
My walls have crumbled and my hearts aware
And still today I look at my past in the mirror and just stare

Free at last

If a man is given 2 options but nether one is what he wants
Is it still his choice?
I am awaken by the dawn and I say to myself, am I allowed to be me today
Is someone going to do things their way?
I grit my teeth and stand my ground
Because I know this fight will go more than one round
Don't do that, don't do this and check in with me often
If that's the case then size me up for my coffin
My heart can't accept a world that allows restrains and ties
My mind can't be fulfilled if its all deception and lies
My soul, well, its too strong to be anything other than free

Today I was Thinking

Criminals get away with it all the time
An innocent man serves life for a crime
Our children suffer in the streets because of parent’s choices
Barely growing those children have no voices
A man takes a cup from the trash and drinks
Survival at its finest moment no matter what society thinks
Our human race suffers year after year
Arguments about the end being near
Praise when it’s earned, and listen to the signs
We can stop these cruel and unusual times
The smallest gesture can change a life forever
And when it comes to perseverance, it helps to not say never.

Regrets

Today she cried
She realized her heart lied
Told her a story of happiness
When it was just blinded by is penis

Indise Edition

What can you do for me?
Why is it that your mind isn't free?
I can sense your fear
I may have choose to be here
But its Your hand on the gun
And, no way will I run
Let me caress your hand
Together we can stand
Powerful when we collide
Nothing causing us to run and hide
Our voices loud and proud
Trickling endlessly through the crowd
Slowly destroy your inner child
Your heart and mind runs wild
Don't blame your mistakes on the town
Show them how great you are, even if you are Brown

Love & Basketball

Reach into my heart and you will find leather
One that can take your mind away
A cool grip that can help you focus
Focus on whats important to you, life
Peel away the warm-ups and expose your skin
A colorful delight of your armor, are you ready for battle
A battle between you and a leather sphere with cruelty inside
Viciously you pound it into the ground only to make yourself better
With grace you shoot it towards the goal
Nothing matters, but you, the ball, and a swish
Relaying your goals of life to that of your game
Making dangerous decisions to change directions
Aiming and striving for a goal
Never giving up after failure, and knowing that you can fail but not fall
Practice and practice and your goals get easier and easier
So step back and set new standards for your future success
Life is like my games of basketball
How I choose to learn the GAME may just be my biggest accomplishment

Then you say your sorry

Yesterday I took your phone and you stopped doing your work
You pouted and did nothing in class
Eventually, you would storm out and whisper "kiss my ass"
Stomping to the office with attitude galore
And they said to you,"in here again, once more?"
So the day goes on and you sleep on your actions
It eats away at you and nothings bringing you satisfaction
So today you quickly scamper to my class so your not late
And get to work on your warm-ups because it's a whole new date
Quietly you write with a furious abandon
Not taking any time to say anything random
I ask if you have finished your warm-up and you nod a yes
So I say to myself, "shes not talking to me, I guess"
Still killing the paper with your pencil you write at your table
Finally getting up as if its your will that has made you able
Walking ever so gently to me and handing me a note
I think to myself "no telling what she wrote"
"I was in a bad mood and took it out on you"
"Sorry for that, to make it up, is there anything I can do?"
My shoulders slump a bit as I sigh with pride
Because I've always known that, in you, a wonderful person likes to hide

Unsportsmanlike Conduct?

What has our sportsmanship come to?
In 2009 I have watch as a Houston University player gets called
for a charging foul then proceeds to WALK on the face of the kid on the ground.
NO, my bad
NO, oops
NO, let me help you up
BUT, only a high five and a smile as hes being ejected


Why is it that players now a days have resorted to a "take no shit" attitude
Its not cool enough to be just a good player, they have to taunt others now
Its not good enough to beat you now, they have to EMBARRASS you
Its not good enough to play hard, you have to have a chip on your shoulder
Its not ok to have had everything, you have to come from poverty
Sometimes I wonder, can I coach another year with these kids?
Then I say to myself:
If Im not there to help them change then who is. And I always say
"if you want something done, do it yourself". I coach discipline, and
hard work. I don't allow players to disrespect me, coaches, players,
refs, and especially THEMSELVES. As I sit back and read and see all
thats going on in sports today, I have to wonder: WHO'S TEACHING THEM THIS?
Hello parents its a new day, do you know HOW your kids are?

And in he walked.....

With eyes slightly opened as the sun beams down
A man walked into our lives with pride in his heart
He stood there ensuring us that we shall not fear
We should not place danger onto ourselves anymore
But, we should stand together as a NATION and fight
Fight for our hopes and dreams
That everything is possible if we live our dreams
Wasn't the dream thing accepted a while ago by another famous man
Although, he was killed before he could really help our nation
He was gunned down in broad daylight by one of his own, "or was he?"
And still to this day we pride ourselves in "living the dream"
So I say stand up and clap your hands for a man that:
Saw race as just another characteristic of a man
Believed in our great nation
Helped us accept and be accepted
Paved the way for our NEW President

I say, Thank you Mr. Kennedy
Thank You.

UNLEASH ME

Throw me down and rake my hands over the words?
Bind my will to break free of the norm?
Allow me no free will to release my knowledge?

Or you can watch me help those in need
Praise me when its time to, or be critical of my failures
The norm is obviously not working for them
Inside I have been filled with ideas and questions
Questions to question the question and the answer
Sometimes my techniques are unorthodox
Then again sometimes they are right on the money
So please unleash my fury
Unleash my knowledge
Unleash my will
Unleash my intensity
Unleash my desire to show you its ok to be different

Dia De Un Reyes

Another year passes by and we age
Leaving behind another year full of happiness and rage
You have poetic rage towards life
Causing your poetry to cut like a knife
Your wisdom is more than anyone I've ever known
And my love for you is more than can ever be shown
I have over time held you at my highest standard and praise
For this strong boy into a man you helped raise
Forever the cigar smell will remind me of being a little boy
And those crazy car rides after school, oh what joy
Time after time you were there to take care of my needs
Even when I got poison ivy from walking in the weeds
I thank you for always being there for me when it counted
Especially when my lifes pressures mounted
Today is the day of the Kings as you know
But I celebrate it as your birthday, for the man that helped me grow

Standing Tall

How many times do you see a chicano standing tall
I've searched many places even in the mall
Proud of who they are and where they're going?
Instead I find slumped shoulders with no emotion showing
So I wander around searching for a friend in my raza
Pero aqui estoy un chicano muy fuerte en mi casa

I glare at my dark eyes and know that they windows
I gleam at my skin and know its different
I peer into my soul and know where its been
I look into my future and see no end

The reflection is all they see
The reflection is not just me
The reflection is just a door
And hidden in the reflection is much, much more.