Si Puedo

Wild and out I rage into the light
Blinded by the future in sight
One breath I can feel the cold
And the next i can embrace the old
But where are we going in life they say
Unfortunately we will know one day
Regret eats at us like the plague
And for some it makes them live in rage
So why not do what you want in time
Because you can't predict the end of the line
All we can do is make the best of it
And have no regrets because in life you've never quit

Puppy Love Unknowing Pups

Together we rode the streets holding hands on our bikes
Young love with no future intentions
My name probably has never poured from your lips in 30 years
Two young kids loving life and playing pretend
Pretending to be the couple we are now with our spouses
Even though those days we were clueless
Clueless to that it all meant
To us it meant getting to hold hands as we made that corner turn onto Gravel street
It meant laughing till our sides hurt
It meant inviting you to my Mcdonalds birthday party
It meant saying goodby and not realizing it was forever
It meant childhood memories would always contain good ones
It meant that knowing I made her smile once means I was there for a reason
It means that not knowing that reason doesn't matter anymore
It means that Gravel Street will always make me smile with every inch of my heart

What Friends

Alone again with these empty people
People no one knows but they know me
Friends no one ever accepted
People who come around when you least expect
My heart opens up to hear their words
Engulfed with their influence
Enraged by their freedom
A freedom no one wants
But one that everyone accepts
And until the day I accept them
I shall remain alone.....all alone

Tomorrow's Promise

Today I smiled and you stared at my soul
Today I asked you to let go
Let go of your worry and fear
Only because I want you near
Next to me and embraced within my fire
Something that promises to take you higher
Higher than tomorrow's expectations and goals
Because it's time for us to become foes
One soul, one beat, one thought of a new heart
Together it's time to agree to never be apart

Another Soul

Into the darkness I push forward blinded and free
I take what I get because it's deep within me
Today I have embraced my torture and pain
Only to never endure it again
Playing these wicked games I am the snakes head
Afraid if all the consequences and being dead
Still I chance the pain and sorrow
Tomorrow I think I will borrow
Borrow the dedication it takes to be a better man
Better than what you say I can
But tomorrow will fill my soul
And if I'm lucky, will make me whole

Save Me

Who's gonna help that strong man
Hes giving it all he can
The storms getting stronger and his backs bending
Hes fighting and every day feels its his actions hes defending
One motion causing multiple ripples in his life
Some days his tension is so thick you can cut it with a knife
He plows forward feeling like a broken tank
And like that bottle hes empty from what he drank
No cool-aid will bring him down but does he care
Into the future he has a curled brow glare
From the past he limps with very little clout
Or is he just suffering from another flare up of the gout
Strong enough to suffer in silence
Strong enough to suffer in violence
Strength.........is our weakness. 

Future

Today is a new day and my smiles are still lost
The sun shines again and yet I've got frowns filled with frost
Time passes me by and I suffer in a vacuum of regret
I'm forced to be polite and treat shitheads with respect
Thoughts go through my heart and questions of why I'm here
But answers are only guided by the end being near
At Night i toss and turn with nightmares of my mistakes
And there's no photographer there for retakes
Spilling into my soul is my tainted blood
And I'm drowning like a lost soul in a flood
Although I struggle, my head stays afloat
Churning to be successful even if I have no boat
One day my end will come
And for now I shall take days, one by one

Unanswered Questions

Inside the halls echoed silence
And the outcome was juvenile violence

A moment in time that no one can take back
And with all the emotions no one knows how to react

Two futures changed in a few seconds of their lives
Those halls now only echo memories and cries

We ask difficult questions with no answers we can accept
Our town left soggy with tears of sorrow and regret

No matter what people say or do the scene was played out and served
Both boys got nothing each one diserved

Families heartbroken and a city divided
Adults blinded to the fact that to get through this we must be united

Ribbons and memorials will be spread to help some cope
But others will continue to react as if they are at the end of their rope

We must protect our children and help them when we can
However, sometimes higher powers have a different plan

Frustration in Time

Sometimes you have to look in the mirror and wonder what you really are looking at.  Are you staring at the person you have made, the person society has made, or the person you are destined to be.  Ive tried to not stare in the mirror basically to avoid any reflection of what I thought Ive seen.  As the image gets older and the lines more prominent I wonder...who am I.  Am I a strong man, a simple man, a shy man, a lonely man, a loving man, an arrogant man, a stupid man, an educated man, a weak man, or just not the right man.  I'm sure at times I can say yes or no to every one of those.   Today I sit a broken man. A man that has been pushed to his limit and has heard the snap of his soul.  I wonder why I'm here, what am I supposed to be doing here, am I doing the right thing, or am I frustrated with the way things are because its ME who's doing it all wrong. Am I supposed to be rude like others, am I supposed to drive as if there are no laws or signs, am I to treat others places as if they are trash dumps? I find myself frustrated a lot with all the situations I get put into due to the inconsideration of others.  My biggest problem I seem to have lately is my two boys.  They are going to grow up on a society that is over sensitive, rude, and expect everything at no or little cost.  A society of the quick dollar at anyone's expense.  How do I help them become kind, loving, considerate, productive young men in society? Shelter them? Force them? or just guide them with love and hope they make the right decisions? All in all I see a society that has lost the drive it to be polite to now just becoming a society of get out of my way or I will run you over.  I watched a move once about all the things Ive been talking about and as the American flag flew at the end it had one word flash across the screen.............

UNLEARN

Tyler Rey el Rey

As you turn one I look back at all the past years fun
From your first smiles to your wabbly attempt to run

Every day your growing stronger and show us your learning
And as much as people talk about you Im sure your ears are always burning

You will continue to grow into a crazy little man like your brother
The love you guys already share amazes me like no other

He makes you laugh and he makes you cry
But no matter what, being like him every day you try

I love to watch you boys communicate without any words being spoken
Im pretty sure yall have created a bond that will never be broken

So one year has gone by and we celebrate it together
Every year it will remind me of your amazing birth....Forever!!

Kickball Kings of Gravel Street

Today's game would be kickball we say
Everyone in the neighborhood come and play
I don't care who
But its me and Ted verses you
What do you mean that's not fair
Im sure you guys have beaten us ONCE, by a hair
 Uleake, mikey, chubbs, and everyone else take a chance
But we get to kick first as I belt a ball and they barely get a glance
Rounding the hubcaps uhhh I  mean bases
I laugh as I make it home looking at their faces
Ted's turn to kick and the results are the same
I guess our 12 year old power is too much for the others 90lb frame
Kick after kick we round the bases for a while
And the others accuse us of cheating as if we were on trial
All in all days growing up repeated like this
And now that we are reaching 40 Im sure those days are some we'll all miss

Another One to Remember

You come to me and all I feel is vibration from your heart
Pacing and pounding it talks to me trying to not fall apart
Your hands quiver as they begin to rise towards me
The touch of your skin brings me to a knee
I caress your porcelain skin as your pores explode with goose bumps
Its getting harder to swallow because my throat's filled with lumps
Our hearts have become one beat as if it were a drumline
Is it yours or is it mine
Closer we get only to wrap eachother with our bodies like twister
Our hips sway as we listen to Broken Wings by Mister Mister
The mositure from our lips lock into position and my body shakes
Each kiss is as unique as a pure snowflake
We spend the night wrapped around eachother enjoying our passion
Repeating the episode as if it were going out of fasion
And in the morning I roll over to notice my beds empty and cold
Remembering that the night of passion was old
Only a mere reflection of you in my dreams again as I sleep
Maybe I need to stick to just counting sheep

Did I Create THAT???

Sometimes a blank canvas or screen is the hardest thing to fill

All that empty space beckoning to you to seduce it with your words or paint

Fill her every inch with your heart and soul

Caressing the tools with your fingers to replace her emptiness with your thoughts

Stroke after stroke your imagination begins to create something special

The letters or lines run together and it all is becoming clearer

Not everyone may understand the true meaning behind the finished product

However you always leave interpretation up to the eyes of the beholder

Some may see it as sad, happy, or just weird

No matter your thoughts on your product, someone will always see if different

So next time you create a masterpiece and they ask "whats it mean?"

Just be proud of your work and reply "WHATS IT MEAN TO.....YOU?"

Farewell

Ive been working at Dick's Sporting Goods for almost a year now and our store manager had informed us that he would be moving to another location. Hes a real good guy and I was compelled to write this for him on his last day:


Farewell
The time comes when we must all move on
Like the neighbors dog on your lawn
New endeavors in our lives we face
As you move on to a different place
A new team to put together a gameplan
And end every day recovered to your liking...well as best as they can
We thank you for your guidance here at 795
Your great attitude always helped bring this place alive
So as you greet your new team in a new pile of bricks
Remember.........every season starts at Dick's

Thought of the Day

My love sits around and works
Im sit watching football thinking of her
Is she thinking of me?
Thoughts cross my mind of our time together and apart
My mind is always flooded with thoughts of us
Oddly too, my thoughts are of her even when shes around me
Sounds, Smells, things we pass all take me to a time we shared
As I glance at her beautiful face,
I think of how great it feels to caress it with the back of my hand
Her skin like porcelain and vibrant
I say to her all the time that I love her, but does she really know
Does she know how much?
Does she know how hard?
Does she know how long?
Maybe she does
Maybe she thinks she does
Maybe I should send her a heartbeat to remind and reassure her that I DO

We are lost children

You were here for so many years with a smile every day
Then after a struggle you were taken away
I guess you were needed elsewhere instead of here with me
So your soul was lifted up and way past the trees
Or are u still here whispering in my ear
Floating around this unbearable air
Last thing you said to me was nothing of importance I know
But for some reason I can't let it go
My brain has been placed on hold since you went away
Twisting and churning every day
So I'm deciding to say goodbye as well
Hopefully I won't find my self like life....in hell

Today Tomorrow Yesterday

Redirect your brain
Reflect your pain
Regret your slice

Forget your story
Forgive your glory
Foresee your past

Replace your fight
Retrace your plight
Retrain your thoughts

UNLEARN

Para Mi Amiga

Mother may I :

Sit on your lap so I can just enjoy your scent
Feel your arms around me so I can feel your love
Cry on your shoulder because I know you understand
Talk to you about nothing at all and enjoy every second of it
Take your car to a friends because I think I'm too cool at 16 to hang with parents
Help you with dinner because one day I wanna be a great cook too
Walk around in your heels and your dress because I wanna be as pretty as you
Braid your hair because it gives me a chance to enjoy your company
Fall asleep in your arms because its the safest place in the world
Caress your arm because my love for you can be expressed in many ways
Be here for you because you have always been there for me
Hold your hand because I know its time for you to go..................TE AMO!

Today I could make History or be it!

Will I leave this world alone?
Should I leave this world alone?
Could I leave this world alone?

Will anyone care?
Should anyone care?
Could anyone care?

My time here has been alone
My time here should be alone
My time here could be alone

And today I smile
Yesterday I smile
And tomorrow I shall frown but on my hands

To my valentine

My life is a constant flow of valentine
I'm so glad that u are mine
A journey together through a tunnel of love
Put together by heaven above
Passion shared by two hearts
Only to yearn for each other every moment apart
Forever is what our love can last
And great memories together we've created in the past
When I touch you I still get chills
And sharing our love always gives me thrills
I embrace all you give and all that you are
And it makes my heart race like Dale Jr's car
We have shared many days and nights together
So I ask you this.....Be my Valentine FOREVER!